Blood

Just recently, one of my aunts found out that she had contracted lung cancer. The news isn't earth-shattering to me, only because I am not close to that particular aunt. (The same does not hold true for my godmother though.)

There was a family falling out many years ago, and even though I spent many hours with her when I was younger, it wasn't until my grandma's death in '05 did our families finally decide to spend more time together. (That meant the obligatory family trips to their apartment every Chinese New Year since.)

But buried underneath my patchy memories, I can still remember being a young tot when she bought me the best Strawberry Cupcake doll. While the doll had a regular upper torso (the kind that all dolls have), it had no legs. In its place, she had a big rubbery poofy skirt that reached to the floor. But the magic of it was that the skirt could be turned upside down and it would transform into a cupcake base. Add a muffin top and you have a doll hidden inside a cupcake.

It was awesome.

Last night I instantly fell in love with the song Blood by Aussie band, The Middle East and I've been playing it on loop ever since. I finally got around to reading the lyrics and somewhere along the lines, I started getting really emotional and wanted to cry from the sheer loss that comes along with losing nothing but feeling like everything's gone.

"it was the only woman you ever loved
that got burnt by the sun too often when she was young
and the cancer spread and it ran into her body and her blood
and there's nothing you can do about it now"

'Blood' The Middle East